Speaking up in class

I wish I did that more; speaking up in class.

Unfortunately, the opportunity for that has gone, and my marks have been locked in.

Now, I’m facing an almost insurmountable hurdle in the final examinations to get the grade I so desire.

If I work hard now, will it happen?

But then again, should it happen? Maybe it’d be better if it didn’t.

Because it could be only then, faced with the disappointment of “the one that got away”, that I may start working on this weakness of mine I’ve had for so long, and finally eliminate the nagging doubts of whether I could or could not do it, and just do it anyway.