I hurried out of my house, all the while thinking about how late I was. “It was the rain,” I would explain, and everything would be alright.
But I knew they wouldn’t buy my story — it stopped raining three hours ago! “What will I say?” I asked myself, again. “I had important matters.” Yes, that’s it. I had important matters. So important I had lost all sense of time. But better late than never, as they say, so I am late.
Yes, that’s it.
I reached the bus-stop. I don’t know why, but this feeling of nothingness suddenly enveloped me.
Allow me to explain: I was thinking about what to say about my being late. A few moments before I reached, my conclusion was reached — I knew what I was going to say, and at that point in time, I felt relieved.
But the second I exited the stage of relief… I felt this emptiness. This nothingness. An existential moment, if you may.
My thoughts concluded, I arrived with an empty mind.
I looked around me: I saw three indian men, a young woman, school girls, and a couple of teenage boys trying to get their attention.
Yes, I saw them. But what about? They meant nothing to me. I was perceiving everything, I sensed everything. I could hear, feel, see, smell — my senses were fine, but my thoughts refused to process the senses — I felt like an animal, with no self-awareness whatsoever.
My mind was empty.
I tried to think, but thoughts whizzed past me like lightning on steroids: quickly, with as much substance as a ghost, and gone before I could even comprehend what it was.
Then the bus came. Thankfully, so did my thoughts… life resumed.
I think I had died for a minute and a half.
I love to read and write. Professionally, data science, technology, and sales ops are my thing. In my non-professional life, I aspire quite simply to be a good person, and encourage others to do the same. For those who care, I test as INFJ in the MBTI.