Archive for October, 2007
31 Oct, 2007
When I Say “Leave me Alone”
Sometimes I like to have “space”. I like solitude, time on my own. You don’t really get much of that when living in a residential college.
There is, however, one pretty good way of being left alone. You could tell people you’d like to be left alone. But there’s a catch.
Tell people you’d like to be left alone, and you will be left alone. Unfortunately, it’s pretty much one-way. You could try to reverse it by telling people you’d like to join them “from now on” (the solitude’s been great, but I’ve had enough), but chances are good these people were probably a little offended you found you needed space from them in the first place.
Solitude’s a very difficult thing to understand. You want some, but not too much.
I’ve found that my best friends are the ones who pretend I don’t need the solitude. Even upon declaration of, “I need sometime alone”, they’ll call me maybe a couple of times, and leave me a couple of text messages (”hey, you alright? Join us for dinner, ya?”). They’ll carry out weak attempts to persuade me that I don’t need to be alone, while knowing full well that I do.
I wish I could be more like them.
31 Oct, 2007
Departure
Sometimes the distance between friends grow and it’s difficult to tell exactly why.
Maybe it’s just the body’s defensive mechanism kicking in, preparing them for their eminent separation.
29 Oct, 2007
Something’s Wrong
I wonder if I’m making things more complicated than they are, over-thinking issues that really aren’t anything at all. I do get these things right sometimes: my intuition to negative vibes are generally good. But though I do get that something is wrong, I often do not know what exactly it is.
Sometimes I think that maybe I’m just oversensitive to “cues” that are not really cues. When the physical world seems to back up the rather pessimistic mental world, the pessimism grows, i.e. when I think that something’s wrong, and I see something wrong, I tend to believe even more strongly in there being something wrong.
Problem is, I don’t know what.
22 Oct, 2007
Journalism in Singapore
David Copperfield may not be doing the Asian leg of his world tour due to “unforeseen circumstances”, or, more specifically, a sexual assault charge. Singapore’s tabloid newspaper The New Paper published a story on this (not sure how long this story will be up on this site).
But here’s the part of the story that really caught my eye:
Another upset fan was undergraduate Luke He, 25, who had bought a pair of $128 tickets to the show and planned to propose to his girlfriend of four years after the event.
I don’t know who the bigger idiot was: the journalist or the undergraduate.
22 Oct, 2007
I Like Loving You
I like the trees, the grass, the sky;
I like the way the bumblebee flies;
I like the computer’s versatility;
I like the Honda’s fuel economy;
I like the Mona Lisa’s abstract smile;
I like the song Children by Robert Miles;
I like doing my weekly long runs;
I like eating hot, steaming buns;
I like being thought as one of two; and
I like the thought of me loving you.