Archive for May, 2007
30 May, 2007
Currie Hall’s Good Riddance Dinner
Today we had a “farewell” dinner party for those who were leaving Currie Hall. I had quite a nice time, though I didn’t expect to. Today felt surprisingly nice right from the start. Somehow I just felt more comfortable being me, as if I didn’t have to put up pretences; but that meant… that I have not been myself all this while! that I have been putting up pretences! Well, perhaps.
A friend did a very nice thing for me today: he helped set me up with a girl! Well, it was really subtle, and it mightn’t be considered “setting up” in the strictest sense, but it was a very, very nice gesture nonetheless. I can’t go into the details for who knows who might be reading this, but heh, it was great.
May [his] God bless him. (and her.)
28 May, 2007
Wind at the Beach
She knocked on my door and I opened it. “Hi,” she said.
“Hi,” I replied. “Come in.”
I liked her, but never dared show it. I didn’t want to appear coming on too strong. I didn’t want her to get the wrong idea.
***
I wish I could treat her like the wind at the beach: something to enjoy while it lasts, but of which I know has no consequence.
I just wish I could.
27 May, 2007
Living with Faults
I’m less tolerant and more stubborn than I thought I was. I’m easily jealous, and I’ve got a terribly skewed perception of justice and what constitutes what’s right and wrong.
Having problems, things upon which I may work on, makes me feel like I have something to look forward to.
I shudder to think of the day I fix all my faults.
26 May, 2007
On Asking a Girl Out on a Date
I have my reservations.
Analyse my contemplations.
Realise owing to my observations
Arise the usual doubting assumptions.
But putting it off to later
What may, now, may just never.
But doing it, thinking, “whatever”?
No, I’d rather put it off to forever.
But if it may,
What, then, would I say?
Maybe if loving you was okay?
Maybe, “darling, how was your day?”
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The fear of an event,
Happening or otherwise,
Perhaps leading to love’s beginning,
Perhaps leading to love’s demise.
23 May, 2007
Studying
I’ve been upping the tempo of my studying lately. Exams are coming in about three weeks time.
Never before in my life have I put so much effort into my academic work! The amount of effort and time spent studying up to this point alone might rival that of Poly totalled, heh.
The funny thing is that I’m actually enjoying this.