Comments on: The Authentic Self http://edonn.com/archives/2005/02/meaning/ Changing the World, One Word at a Time Sat, 10 Jan 2009 01:21:46 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.6.2 By: martin http://edonn.com/archives/2005/02/meaning/#comment-31 martin Tue, 30 Nov 1999 00:00:00 +0000 #comment-31 its army. i felt the same way too. but once u get posted out and resume back normal singaporean (non tekong regimented lifestyle), u realize all the shit comes back to you double fold. its army. i felt the same way too.

but once u get posted out and resume back normal singaporean (non tekong regimented lifestyle), u realize all the shit comes back to you double fold.

]]> By: Donn L. http://edonn.com/archives/2005/02/meaning/#comment-47 Donn L. Tue, 30 Nov 1999 00:00:00 +0000 #comment-47 Is it really the army? Is the army giving me optimism and hope? Could it be that that the structured discipline, the mind-washing is actually playing its part in motivating me into becoming "one with the world"? Alas, it might be. But to so quickly and conveniently point the finger at the army for this hope and optimism... ...it's not right. But I would like to add though, that this "oneness" I feel is radically different from the "oneness" I used to feel while regularly practicing meditation. At that time, the "oneness" I felt actually made me look <em>outwardly</em> unhappy. But I was, according to my diary, at that time feeling like "I have no reason to smile, no reason to be sad, no reason to be anything; yet, I am feeling serene and blessed; I am feeling happy -- and I do not have to smile to show it." Is it really the army? Is the army giving me optimism and hope? Could it be that that the structured discipline, the mind-washing is actually playing its part in motivating me into becoming “one with the world”?

Alas, it might be. But to so quickly and conveniently point the finger at the army for this hope and optimism…

…it’s not right.

But I would like to add though, that this “oneness” I feel is radically different from the “oneness” I used to feel while regularly practicing meditation. At that time, the “oneness” I felt actually made me look outwardly unhappy.

But I was, according to my diary, at that time feeling like “I have no reason to smile, no reason to be sad, no reason to be anything; yet, I am feeling serene and blessed; I am feeling happy — and I do not have to smile to show it.”

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